ED SHEERAN

Just when I thought I couldn't fall even more in love with him...I see him live.
The performance started at 5pm, so I dragged Phoebe to the city at 12pm where we sat on the grass reading Ernest Hemingway short stories/read the Irish Times at Customs House/drank coffee until people started gathering, including my friend Katharine who HAD WON TICKETS TO HIS (over 18s :( ) GIG A FEW HOURS AFTER THE FREE SHOW! At about 4pm a woman came over and asked us to go around the other side of the Quay, outside the Passenger Terminal. We waited there for a bit...and then....ED SHEEERRAANN ARRIVED.
Not only is this guy AMAZINGLY talented (he just rocked up with a mini guitar thing), he's just such a nice, lovely guy. He had us all singing parts of Give Me Love (which is his favourite song out of all the ones he's written), and had us all yelling "FUCK THE RAIN! WE DON'T CARE" before You need me, I don't need you.  The backdrop of Sydney Harbour was beautiful, which made it all the more better. Oh, and he started off with Grade 8 which is one of my favourites, and before he sung Lego House, he said that in the video clip he had a "fellow ranga play him".
The most touching part was when he explained the story behind A-Team. He wrote it about a young girl who he met when volunteering at a place which houses homeless people throughout Christmas. I've posted the video below (and click on the names of the songs throughout this post, because I've linked it to videos of his performance!)

IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY

My reference to U2 in the title of this post is a product of me reminiscing about how this time last year I saw Muse and U2, and also because today was indeed beautiful. You're probably screaming inside, asking yourself WHHYY CHLOE WHY WAS TODAY BEAUTIFUL!?? NOT KNOWING IS KILLING ME INSIDDEEEE! Well, my friend. If you calm your farm I shall tell you why today was beautiful.
1. The HSC is over. Every morning when I wake up and remember that fact it just automatically makes the day a whole lot better
2. Went into the city with Jem and Phoebe (ABSOLUTELY PERFECT WEATHER). We got coffee and macaroons from Lindt Cafe, went to the Art Gallery (where I shall be returning next week for the Picasso exhibition!), caught a bus to Coogee beach which was absolutely picturesque, swam until the sun went behind a cloud, bought an extra large dose of hot chips, and sat on the sand pondering about life and messed up seagulls.
3. I found out that Ed Sheeran is IN AUSTRALIA......and is....PERFORMING A FREE SHOW TOMORROW NIGHT! MY LIFE IS NOW COMPLETE.
4. I bought a book containing a variety of Ernest Hemingway's works too read! Woooooo.

Tomorrow I'm going to hit up the beach (as I have done for the past 3 days), stalk Ed Sheeran after his gig until I get a photo, and then go home and watch Lost in Austen in bed until I fall asleep. I LOVE LIFE WITHOUT SCHOOL/HSC!

WOW. JUST WOWZA TO THE MAX.

So I finally finished the HSC. Yes, I survived. Just.
By my final exam, History Extension, I was almost dead from exhaustion. I had Legal that morning (3 hours long), and as soon as I exited the exam hall I had to run to the common room and study for History Extension in the 40 MINUTES I had in between the two exams. The History Extension exam was basically me writing like a mad woman/watching the clock/counting down the minutes I had until my HSC finished. When it ended, our exam supervisor let us all 'WOOOOOPP', and we sprinted out of the exam hall once our papers had been collected, continued sprinting to the common room, and the room soon became one of raving/tequila shots. That night I went out for dinner with family, and it was honestly just so weird thinking that I'll never have to do another high school exam/return to high school. Also, it was nice to enjoy dinner without having to worry about studying! The end of the HSC was met with relief. Relief because if it went any longer I would have burnt out, and relief because I am satisfied that I literally gave the HSC everything I could. I'M JUST SO GLAD THAT IT'S OVER. Bring own the 3 month holiday.

Oh, and I saw Midnight in Paris yesterday. It is officially one of my favourite movies. It is absolutely beautiful. The scenery, the characters, the underlying 'moral' of the story. I've officially made the mental decision that I'm moving to Paris for some of my life. I don't care if the only thing I can say in French is 'I don't speak French'.

WHAT I'VE GOT PLANNED FOR THE NEXT MONTH:
-Beach x100000000
-Partying x1434000
-Formal x2
-Going away with friends
-Seeing Midnight in Paris again
-Getting a tan
-Going to LA
-Bundeena
-Going on a 5 hour hike
-Seeing the Picasso exhibition at the Art Gallery
-Start watching Misfits
-Enjoying DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AND NOT HAVING TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT


P.S. I just went back through my old posts, and on this day last year I posted about 'Lads on the Train'. I still laugh whenever I think about the conversation the two guys were having.
P.P.S. Another reason why I'm going to marry Ed Sheeran.

Letter of hate to Extension English

I do not care about Textual Dynamics I do not care about Foucault’s notion of the shifting identity I do not care about Derrida’s theory of differénce I do not care about Judith Butler’s theory of gender as a performance I do not care about Sally Potter’s Orlando and if Orlando is male or female I do not care how Calvino utilises metafiction I do not care if he uses playful devices because ultimately it’s just a book and I do not care if Orlando challenges certainties because it’s just a film and watching movies is supposed to be enjoyable.

I can confirm that the subject made me cry yesterday. YES. DID YOU HEAR THAT EXTENSION ENGLISH? YOU CAN CLAIM A CHLOE MELTDOWN. I called my Mum, and you know when people are so nice that they make you cry even more? Yeah, that's what happened. Ten minutes after I hung up, she sent me a text saying "Listen for the doorbell", and when it rung I opened it to find Mum's best friend with a delivery of coffee and macaroons. It did put a smile on my face.

This week is going to be terrible, so I'm going to neglect this blog until Friday. On Friday I'll officially be free and have the freedom to post as much random crap/rants/photos/videos as I want! Wooooo. I should really be studying right now but when Chloe needs to rant, she rants. Until then, read all of my old posts from last year because they're hilariously lame.

Imma miss youse all. Until Friday,
Chloe x

P.S. I have this friend called Chris and he went to the school next door to mine and he's really tall and plays basketball and volleyball (I think?) and is really good at high jump and can jump over bars that are higher than me and he says that I don't mention him on my blog enough so hi Chris, hope you're well and engaging in lots of studying!

WILL I EVER FALL OUT OF LOVE WITH THIS MAN?

"She’s reinventing loving me
When we’re resembling cutlery on the sofa"


.....When we're resembling cutlery on the sofa. Ed Sheeran is pure genius. 

Nothing stands between me and the week of doom next week.

Except a lot of trips to get coffee...
Next week's HSC exams:
31st: Extension English (Don't even get me started on that (insert expletive) of a subject...I have to write an essay which is impossible to memorise because I have no idea what I'm even talking about, and a creative piece which is equally impossible to memorise because it's as boring as hell and my eyes start to twitch with tiredness whenever I look at it).
1st November: Modern History (AKA 3 hours of torture. The two essay questions could literally be on anything to do with the two topics....kill me now?).
3rd November: Legal Studies and History Extension. (That day is going to be so bad that I don't even know what words are capable of capturing such horror. Let's just say that if I don't survive that day then I loved you all...even if only one of you left a message for me on my Tumblr).
3rd November at 4.00: FRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDOOMM. No more school/exams/study/stress.

On a lighter note, WE MADE IT ONTO PAGE 3 OF THE SYDNEY MORNING HERALD. As in, you opened up the Herald and BAM! There was our article. Despite the photo being as awkward as hell (think pretend conversation...plus me grinning like a serial killer), the article was really good AND I GOT QUOTED. LIKE A BOSS. Click here to read the article!

Tiredness

1. I can't stop listening to Ed Sheeran.
2. I really don't care enough about Soviet Russia to write essays on it right now.
3. I just had a piece of amazing stick-date pudding.
4. I'm starting yoga again.
5. I'm enjoying writing this list of pointless things because it means that I don't have to write essays on Soviet Russia.
6. I want to sign up to start traditional Scottish country dancing.
7. I'm extremely over tired. HSC=Emotionally draining.
8. The new video chat on Facebook is a dream come true. Neither Eleni nor my sounds works so we just look at each other pointlessly/write messages on pieces of paper.
9. I like starting each sentence with I.
10. Since I disabled my Formspring SEND ME CUTE MESSAGES ON MY TUMBLR! Some of you have already, and when you do it makes my day (like seriously, it does). Just click on the link 'TUMBLR' on the top of this page and then follow the link and then click on the ASK box on my Tumblr and then write a cute message or a joke or a link to a song or a poem of a random image or a picture of a squirrel in a dress or a letter declaring your ever-lasting love for me (preferably that one) and then finish typing it and then add a smiley face or a winky face and then click send and then wait for my reply and then I'll reply and then it'll be awesome. Write it on anonymous, or from your Tumblr is you have one (I'll follow you back ;) ), whatever tickles your fancy.WUB CHUU.

I'm finally admitting it.

I'm in love.
With a guy.
His name is Ed Sheeran, and he's a 20 year old British singer from the UK.
And he's a ranga.
And and and he has THE MOST PERFECT VOICE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD. Like seriously.Life 'aint fair. 
WHAT IS IT ME WITH ME AND MY SOFT SPOT FOR BRITISH SINGERS.
His music and the lyrics in them are just jguiospdfhnguiosdjghiosdfmngiogjniofdjgiodsf. I hope I described it well enough.
Click here to hear what may or may not be the most romantic song in the entire world. 
This one is also one of my favourites.


Just in case you haven't fallen in love with him yet, I'll post ONE MORE.



P.S. Today I went to buy a chocolate from a vending machine and it took my money AND DIDN'T GIVE ME THE GOD DAMN $%^$#&* CHOCOLATE. There goes my coffee for tomorrow....

ANTI-CLIMAX OF A LIFETIME

So it turns out the HSC isn't too bad. I've done three exams so far, and although Drama was a bit "Why did they go out of their way to produce a bad question", the others haven't been too bad! They weren't easy, but they were do-able. The Hamlet question was a bit awkward seeing as though I couldn't remember much of the END of the play (which is what the question was on....), but now it's over I can't do anything about it so I'm not going to worry about it! So glad/relieved that English is over-forcefully chucking all my notes in the recycling bin in the common room was QUITE liberating to say the least.  Oh, and I'm going to be in an article next week with some of my friends about high-school students who dropped maths and science for the HSC! We even had our photo taken (cue awkward pretend conversation).

Things I have discovered in the past few days:
-I need to get out and go for runs/get fit, I've COMPLETELY lost balance and I need to restore it! ASAP!
-My love for Cinnamon scrolls from a new bakery near my house. TO DIE FOR.
-Enrique Inglesias: He's a singer (you all probably know of him), who during one of his songs he performs at his concert, invites a fan girl on stage and serenades her. You're probably thinking "WHAT IS SO COOL ABOUT THAT!?". Hmmmm well maybe the fact that at the end of the song HE KISSES THE FAN GIRL. LIKE HOOKS UP WITH HER. Why can't any of the bands/singers that I love do that! So not fair.
-I really, really, really want to see the movie Midnight in Paris once my exams are over (yes, I know it sounds like the name of Paris Hilton's sex tape). It got the most AMAZING review in the Sydney Morning Herald, and after watching the trailer I've officially decided that it's my movie to see after the HSC. Here's the trailer!

OK............

SO MY HSC STARTS THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW.
IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HSC IS BECAUSE YOU LIVE IN ANOTHER COUNTRY/YOU LIVE UNDER A ROCK/IN NARNIA THEN GOOGLE IT IF YOU WANT TO READ ABOUT A SYNONYM FOR TORTURE.

Ok, so it's unfolding to be not be all that bad. This time last year I was thinking to myself "Om@gawwwddd 'dis tyme nxt year imM@ b333 freakin oUttt I think a justification for my relative calmness is:
a) My first three exams aren't too bad (in fact, they're probably the easiest out of all of them)
b) I've been studying my ass off. Quite literally.

In more exciting news, I've been having really weird dreams. I wrote them down so I could write them here.
TWO NIGHTS AGO: I was doing my English HSC exam, and basically they had changed the rules so parents and friends could come and stand next to you and support you. Sounds nice, but basically all of them wouldn't stop talking, so I couldn't concentrate. Next thing I knew, time was up and I hadn't written anything.

LAST NIGHT: I moved to London, and after escaping a near-death experience where I was caught in a flood of water, I safely arrived outside the place where I was to meet my 'boyfriend' for dinner. He turns up, and his name is Demitruis, goes to my friend's school, is a drama kid, obsessed with Thai pork, and wouldn't stop sitting in my lap. When we were having dinner, George Craig and his friend called 'Fish' (My brain thinks of weird names) came and joined us at our table (Yes, Demitruis was still seated in my lap....), and I specifically remember that George was wearing a jacket with abnormally large 'spikes'. The end.

I am off to return to my cave of study-dom. Mum turned up to my room today with a coffee, cinnamon scroll, new stationary and tea from T2. Turns out if you're doing the HSC you get special treatment. I like it.

Regards,
Chloe

Pure amazingness.

Janet Devlin for winner of X-Factor UK! SHE IS SO AMAZING AND TALENTED GNIJDSFNGLIHJKFDNGJFD. Oh, and I want her hair. I could actually listen to this rendition of Fix You a million times and not get sick of it.

Things you learn from babysitting

When I was babysitting a 3 year old on Saturday (I babysit her every week), it was raining so we spent the majority of the time watching movies/TV. The things you can take away from children shows/movies are quite valuable.
1. When watching Bananas in Pajamas, I began to write a response to the episode in relation to my English topic "Belonging", as practice for the HSC. Here is my response. Oohhhh I make my self laugh.
In the Bananas and Pajama's episode "Collecting", B1 and B2 wish to fulfill their desire of playing with Rat in the Hat and Lulu, however both characters are preoccupied with their 'collections'. B1 and B2 feel ostracised from their friends due to the fact that neither banana has a collection, such a feeling of isolation and the subsequent pressure to conform manifested in B1's statement that "Everyone has collections so we want one too!". B1 and B2 struggle to conform to societal expectations as they try and fail to collect various items in the hope of achieving the satisfaction that 'collecting' is seen to achieve. Upon recognising the hardships the two bananas are experiencing in their battle to conform and their need to retain a sense of self identity, Lulu comforts them, stating that "You shouldn't do it because everyone else does it!". Thus the bananas realise that the rejection of the collective entails personal liberation, and spend the rest of the day playing happily with Lulu and Rat in the Hat.
Hahahahaha oh dear. I should really get a life. 
2. In the movie 'Robots' (which I think I enjoyed more than the 3 year old), the main character strives by the belief "See a need, fill a need". I think that that really resonates with me, in regards to thinking about what I want to do with my life. Making the world a better place for someone/people. I LOVE CHILDREN'S MOVIES <3 (Yeah, I'm pathetic. Wot 0f it)
3. In Ice Age (we watched number one, the sequel, then number one again), the sloth, Sid, says to the mammoth "My friend, you've got to let go of your past if you want a better future". HOW GOOD IS THAT QUOTE! I should really spend more time watching children's movies.
4. We watched the show Yo-Gabba-Gabba, and IT'S SO GOOD! It's like a really funky childrens show. Here is a song which was on the episode that we watched, and it was so catchy I found myself singing it the next day. Skip to 38 seconds!

GRADUAL BUILD UP OF TENSION UNTIL IT EXPLODES

I don't know why I made that the heading....oh wait, MY HSC STARTS IN 10 DAYS! Yeah, you heard right. Ten. T-E-N. The number that when written backwards spells NET.
So yeah, that's what's been distracting me from blogging over the past few days. I've been studying like a maniac, drinking waaaayyy (and I mean waaaayyy) to much coffee, sleeping, eating, and then filling in the gaps in my life with more studying.
Over the past couple of days, however, I've been compiling a list of random things to write about when I eventually logged back on to Blogger.com.
1. The other day, I don't know why, but I began thinking about the video 'World's Biggest Pimple'. Thinking about the video turned me off food for the rest of the day. Click here if you haven't seen it.
2. A couple of days ago I walked into my room and sat at my desk to find a GIANT cardboard box. On the top  of it, there was a note saying "To my dearest Chloe, from your lover".  I opened it to find a mouldy sandwich, that was so incredibly mouldy that it was entirely (ENTIRELY) green, with patches of BLACK and PINK. PINK MOULD. It was like a rainbow of mould.  Thanks Phoebe xoxoxoxox
3. I was really saddened to hear of Steve Job's death. I knew that he had recently resigned from Apple and was terminally ill, but I didn't understand the severeness of his cancer, thinking that we'd all see him continue on to do great things in the near future. My Facebook news feed was full of Steve Job-related status updates, and I was pretty disappointed to see people making jokes about his death. I don't really see what's funny about a man dying from cancer...One status was so incredibly stupid and shallow that I saved it so I could post it on here: "steve jobs definitely isnt a revolutionary or genius, apple just made certain things before other people". What just topped off the status was his friend's comment:  "yeh he just invented things for hipsters. oh wait he didn't invent them. but some guy did". A) Apple made "certain things before other people" BECAUSE Steve Jobs was a creative genius. B) As for his friend's comment....how about you learn to make sense before you be disrespectful/not funny? However, among these statuses (or whatever the plural of status is), my friend posted a quote from Steve Jobs which I printed out and stuck next to my desk. "Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything-all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure-these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important  Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose.You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart". RIP Steve Jobs.
4. At Edmunds and Greer, a new waiter secretly gave me free macaroons with our coffees. Needless to say, I officially have a new favourite waiter.
5. Whilst I was studying yesterday, my Nan called me up and asked if I wanted to get out of the house. I accepted her offer, and ended up having a lovely day! We went to the nursery where she chose some new flowers (and where there were numerous sexy tradies), and then went and had a coffee/caramel slice. I LOVE GRANDMAS <3.
6. My Dad's deaf friend came over for dinner the other night, and he communicates to people via notepads. It got me thinking-imagine having every conversation you ever had stored in notepads? Like a library of your conversations. 
7. You may notice some changes on the blog- I've had this layout for a LONG time (as in ever since I started the blog), and I might play around with a few things to make it look a bit sexier (well as sexy as blogs can get). Have patience! (Knowing me I'll stuff the whole thing up and my blog will look like a blank powerpoint). 

AWKIEZ

Ok, so I'm about 99% sure this is the longest I have ever gone without updating my blog. I kind of feel like a parent who has neglected their children.
REASONS AS TO WHY I HAVEN'T UPDATED IN NEARLY A WEEK:
1. Hmmmm let's see.....MAYBE THE FACT THAT MY HSC STARTS IN LESS THAN TWO WEEKS!!????? Yeah, this time in two weeks I would have finished my first HSC exam. Scary thought, but what's a tad more exciting is that this time in a MONTH, I'll be enjoying my first day of freedom! 
2. Study
3. Study
4. Busy stalking One Direction (Yeah....going through a bit of a boy-band phase. However, I believe that no teenage girl should be deprived of the 'fangirling phase. Take it as you will). 
5. Study

So yeah, I hope I have sufficiently justified my lack of presence. However, due to my lack of updates I have quite a lot to say in this post (please excuse my bullet-pointing which has become a common sight on this blog...if they continue feel free to give me a cyber-slap):
1. SHANE WARNE AND ELIZABETH HURLEY GETTING ENGAGED?? I don't really know what to write apart from an excessive amount of exclamation and question marks. He is probably one of the most revolting people on the planet-just look at the plastic surgery he's had since he's started dating her. Oh wait, sorry, he said that his physical changes (which have made him look like a life-size Ken doll gone wrong) are merely results of him using a great "skin creme that Elizabeth put me onto!". I'm pretty sure no-one is going to want to buy that skin creme if it makes us look like that....
2. I saw a great movie last night called Crazy Stupid Love. I watched the trailer before I went, and it looked kind of boring, but I'm all for shallow romantic comedies (especially when you're an emotionally unstable HSC student). I chose the movie, and before it started I whispered to Phoebe and Eleni "If it's a piece of crap, I apologising in advance!". When the movie finished, we were all so surprised at how funny/enjoyable it was. Not only is Ryan Gosling a B-A-B-E, but it's just a fun, not-too-deep-not-too-shallow movie. High fives all round.
3. I've discovered the best pen in the world, and I've ordered Dad out to buy 6 packets of them for my HSC. They're the...prepare for wanky pen name...BIC 4+ 05. You actually get addicted to writing with it (or maybe it's just me), and I used up 2 pens in two days just from writing everything out because it's just so fun to write with.
4. Collingwood lost the grand final. We had an E-P-I-C grand final party, with black and white food, streamers, and balloons....and then they lost. My little brother, who is the most DEDICATED Collingwood fan (he even has Collingwood undies), was lying in front of the TV crying, saying "Collingwood how *sniff* could you *sniff*  do this to meeeeee *sniff*"
5. My idiocy was highlighted when I did my university preferences. Only after I had submitted them did I realise that
a) The lowest entry ATAR I had on it was 94
b) For I put the wrong code, which meant a random course was put on my preferences
Luckily I was able to log back on the next day and fix everything. Submitting them was scary....I finally had to face what I want to do with the rest of my life. I'm really happy with my preferences (I'd love any of them), but the courses I REALLY want to get into have very high entry ATARS, and when I was submitting these courses I realised how much pressure I've put on myself. I guess a bit of pressure can be advantageous, but I've got to be careful not to stress myself out too much!

Anywho, I'm off to study some more (JUST THINK CHLOE IN ONE MONTH IT'LL BE ALL OVER!!! W0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0), and I'll remain in hibernation until tonight, when I'm going out for dinner, and then will retreat back to my cave until Friday, for a friend's barbeque.
Love your hibernating friend,
Chloe

WOW.

Today I:
-Studied
-Ate the cupcakes that I cooked (SO GOOD HEGISUOSDFHGIUHADFLGIUDFNSJKGNDF)
-Studied
-Drank coffee
-Minded the house while my brother was at hospital after breaking his thumb
-Applied for jobs (decided it was time to get off my lazy ass and do something about my lack of financial resources)
-I'm absolutely obsessed with the voice of an amazingly-talented girl who has a Youtube channel where she uploads videos of her singing. She is absolutely INCREDIBLE! I've been listening to her all day whilst studying.  She auditioned for the UK X-Factor a couple of weeks ago (click here for her audition), and they think she's going to win! I'm so jealous of her Irish accent! Here's one of my favourite videos of her singing:

That blog post with the really, really long quiz because the girl who writes for the blog was bored

Today I studied and cooked brownies. You know you're a HSC student when the closest you get to exercising is un-stacking the dishwasher.
I'm really bored, and seeing as though I kind of gave up on the Blog Challenge, I thought that a good way to pull through this phase of boredom would be to do a quiz. If you are as bored as me, read it! If you aren't bored, read it anyway. Just cause I'm cool
 Let’s start it off with, why are you single?
I'm not-I'm in a mental relationship with One Direction.

How much cash do you have on you right now?

$4.20. I went to Edmunds and Greer with Christopher and we went a bit overboard with the macaroons...

What do you carry on you at all times?

My iPhone (in all it's cracked-screen glory)

Has anyone disappointed you recently?

Yeah. I thought Harry Styles would ask me out sooner.(Look him up)

Would you rather be the heart breaker or get your heart broken?

Hmmmmm I think be the heart breaker, as bad as that sounds. I'd just say sorry afterwards (does that compensate....?)

Last awkward situation?

My life.

If you married the last person you messaged on fb, what would your last name be?

Chloe Cox.

How do you feel about changes?

LOVE IT! 

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?

Yes! I literally smile at anything. I'm smiling answering this question. 

Do you think age matters in relationships?

Well they say 'love has no age', but most reasonably normal human beings would thing that a 60 year old dating a 17 year old is more babysitting than dating (unless you're Phoebe). I think once you hit university it doesn't really matter, but I personally wouldn't date anyone more than 4 years older. 

Are you tired?

Well wouldn't you be too, if you had been studying since 9am?

Were you happy when you woke up today?

I woke up nice and comfy, and then it dawned on me that my HSC is in 3 weeks and that I needed to spend the entire day studying. Luvin' lyf23333 


What color is your hair?

Cool question. For the record my hair is dark blonde, usually dyed brown because I'm kewl. 

What’s something you really want right now, be honest?

To give the HSC my best shot, and then for it to be over.

When’s the last time you cried?

Last week after graduation.

What do you want for Christmas?

When was the last time you were told you were amazing?

OmG lyk3333 @!llll da tyme33333 <3 <3

Are you mad at someone right now?

Hamlet. And Italo Calvino for that matter.

Missing someone?

Of course!

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

Yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes.

Is it hard for you to get over someone?

Very hard. It's pretty pathetic!

Is your bedroom window open?

Yepp.

Has anyone told you they missed you lately?

Yes :) But I'm in voluntary solitary confinement until the conclusion of my HSC.

Are you afraid of needles?

ARE YOU PSYCHIC!? So, so scared. 

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

You? You are asking me these questions, after all. Trolololololol.

What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Studied. Yeah, I lead a really exciting life.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

Of course! Doesn't everyone?

What do you hear?

Phoebe calling our dog. Wont. Stop. Barking. The dog that is, not Phoebe. I'M SO FUNNY AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. AND OVERTIRED HAHAAHAHAHA.

Are you excited for tonight?

Study. Omag@wd lyk3333 sh00o0o0oo00 exshited lyk3sss omg <3

What is your biggest pet peeve?

When people say 'YOOO-HOOOOOO!!!". 

Do you cry if you see someone you love crying?

Yeah, sometimes I do. Especially when my Mum cries!

Have you ever told anyone straight to their face that you don’t like them?

Haha wow. Maybe? I honestly can't remember. 

Have you ever done anything illegal?

Yah mun.

Do you toss and turn for hours at night or do you just fall straight to sleep?

I fall straight to sleep like a dead bunny.

Is there anything you need to buy at the store right now?

COFFEEEEEEEEEE X10000

What’s worse, ignorance or stupidity?

Ignorance by far! Ignorance makes me sick.

Who was the last person you gave your number too?

A website for an event I'm going to next week!

Would you date someone three years older than you?

Not while I'm in high school, no.

Have you ever given your all to someone just to have them walk away?

Ehhhhh perhaps.

Has a boy/girl ever called you babe/baby?

Yeaaaaahh. Hate it!

Are you shorter than your mom?

She’s shorter than me.

Would you get married if you could right now?

Harry Styles or George Craig. Both are British musicians/long curly hair. I'd be happy to marry them both. The offer's there boys. 

Does anyone completely understand you?

Yepp. Only a couple of people though, because I am one craaazzzyyy child.

Do you write how you speak?

Yes.

Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

Trolololololol

Do you know anyone who doesn’t smoke pot?

Yeah brooo. Stonerszzz ain't my type of crewwww.

Name a time you thought you were going to die?

When I was lying in the middle of the road at night with friends, and all of a sudden a car came flying down the street at full speed. 

Do you miss the way things used to be?

Change=GOOD.

Will tomorrow be better than today?

I'm guessing it'll probably be the same (Edmunds and Greer for coffee, studying until bed. I'm really cool/rebellious).

Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?

Yepp!

When’s the last time you had a real smile on your face?

Answering some of these questions.

You’re thinking of someone right now aren’t you?

Maybe yes, maybe no. 

When was the last time you were in a very good mood?

Walking home from having coffee with my little brother!

Can you sleep without blankets covering you?

Depends if I've just watched a scary movie or not!

Last movie you watched? With who?

Ratatouille with Ellyse. BEST MOVIE EVER! 

How long do you think you will live?

10234563 and 5356345 days

Are you spoiled?

I wouldn't say spoiled?

How do you vent your anger?

On this blog!

What theme does your room have?

Messy.

Today, would you rather go back a week or go forward a week?

Go back a week to relieve those precious last days of high school!

How many chances do you tend to give people before enough is enough?

Waaayyyy more than I should!

Do you believe in love?

Yes, I do. I also believe that teenage love is a superficial version of what's to come.

Are all girls shit talkers and bitches?

Definitely not.

What’s so special about your name?

I was named after Dad's neighbours old cat? 

How’s your heart lately?

Beating. It's all gewwwd. 

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?

Trololololololol.

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you?

Yep! They're just missing out xoxoxoxoxxoxoxox 

Who was the last person to yell at you?

Mothership, when she saw the mess I made after making cupcakes. 

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?

Three months away school/HSC will be long gone, so who knows? 

Could you go a month without talking to your best friend?

No waaayyy.

Have you ever in anyway, been betrayed by someone you trust?

Unfortunately yes.

Do you find it in your heart to forgive?

Occasionally. 

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

Yeah, a few of them :)

Are all of your friends in relationships?

Not really. Most aren't!

Name something you disliked about the day you had?

Study.

Can you honestly say you’re happy right now?

Yes, I can! WEIEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

Do you currently have something stuck in your head?

Forever Young

How is your hair?

Tied up in a messy bun. HSC style.

Are you tan right now?

Hell to tha nooo.Pasty as a clown in solitary confinement. 

Tell me who you were with Saturday night?

My grandparents (parents rejected me for a romantic getaway)

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?

OMG no. HSC does bad things to one's fashion sense. Baaaddd things. 

Do you believe ex’s could really ever be “just friends”?

I guess it depends if you ended on a good note or not.

The person you HAVE or HAD strongest feelings for dies, do you care?

Uhhhhhh YES!??? I'm not a block of cement!? I HAVE FEELINGS YAAAA KNOW!?

Do you believe that your first love can be your only love in life?

Paaaaahhh @ teenage love. Yes, I'm cynical. 

If I looked on your bedroom floor right now, what would I find?

Floorboards/notes/clothes/pens/books.

Have you kissed the last person you texted?

My Mum? On ze cheek.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?

In my friend's bed.

Stories of a high school graduate...

Here is a 'BULLET-POINT UPDATE' on the life of Chloe, the high school graduate as of two days ago.

• After watching Ratatouille whilst babysitting yesterday, I decided that I'm going to learn to cook. There, I said it. I'M GOING TO LEARN HOW TO COOK. It dawned on me that with my cooking skills (or profound lack thereof), how am I going to survive when I move out? No Chloe, you can't eat two minute noodles and microwavable soup for breakfast lunch and dinner every day. 
• I've become addicted to TapTap. It's kind of embarrassing. Minus the 'kind of'. I think anyone would agree that getting 95% on 'Extreme' mode is pure embarrassment, and a sign that I should stop playing before my fingers fall off. 
• I've started studying for my final exams. I'm putting in the extra effort because we're on the 'final home stretch' of Year 12. I've written out a timetable that lasts until the end of the HSC called the 'HSC STUDY TIMETABLE: THE 2011 DO OR DIE EDITION'. The real challenge is to actually STICK TO IT.
• Mum and Dad are on a romantic getaway for their wedding anniversary, so my grandparents are looking after Chris (little brother), Phoebe and I. Last night we were playing cards, and it's a joke within our family that Nan always cheats at cards (She doesn't actually cheat, that's why it's funny). I joked last night that if I speak at her funeral, I'll ask everyone to remember her as the "One who cheated at cards". Nan's response was priceless. She said "Chloe if you do that, I'll haunt you in your bed. Not scary haunting, but cuddle-haunting". Looking forward to future 'Haunting cuddles' with Nan. 
• I also had the BEST conversation with my little brother. Finally I've got the chance to play the 'cool' big sister. He told me that he really likes a girl called Ruby, but also that she doesn't like him back, and he wants me to help her like him. Tomorrow Chris and I are riding our bikes secretly to her house and leaving a little bunch of lavender tied with a ribbon on her doorstep!
• Remember how I wrote about the band One Direction, that I'm fan-girling over? Well Phoebe and I found the most HILARIOUSLY LAME fan Tumblr, called 'Cute1DFantasies'. Click here to experience it's lameness. Basically it's a Tumblr that 13 year olds write into describing their 'cute fantasies', and the person who runs the Tumblr publishes them in 'cute colours and fonts'. Phoebe and I found it's lameness so hilarious that we were nearly crying of laughter, and as a joke we wrote in with the lamest, 'cute fantasies' we could think of, just to see if they would get published. They did. SUCH A WIN! The one that I submitted that got published was a paragraph that was entirely one sentence. Wiewwww. 
• I found the piece that the chamber orchestra played at my graduation on Thursday. It's so beautiful hguipsdhtgpdfuojsgnds. Please ignore the random pictures displayed throughout the video (...?)

The end's not near, it's here.

WARNING: Overly emotional/unstable  teenager 
On the morning of my last day of high school I was at my train station, and I walked past the boy who gave me a rose on my last day of primary school. It got me thinking. On that final day of primary school it felt like the world was coming to an end. My friends, who I had been with since I started kindergarten aged 4, were all going separate ways. It was the most important day of my life thus far, and we all promised to be best friends forever, to have reunions, and to always come back and visit the teachers. Fast forward to Year 12, and I laugh when I think of primary school, and how insignificant the last day of Year 6 was. I've never gone back to visit, and I only keep in touch with about 5% of my Year 6 classmates.

Will I look back on the final day of Year 12 in the same way, 6 years from now?
No. With these people I'm genuinely going to be life-long friends. With these people I've laughed until I thought I was going to die from chest pains, cried about two Olympic Pool's worth of tears, matured into a reasonably adult-like 17 year old, been excessively immature, have had many "low points", however endless amounts of amazing, happy memories that I'll be thinking about when I'm an old grandma sitting on a rocking chair on the back porch of my retirement village. The fact that we've all figured out who we are together, and still all remain close friends means that our friendships will stand the test of time. Even if I'm not going to be seeing them five days a week! Although cheesy, the "Graduation Song" by Vitamin C has a lot of truth to it.
"As we go on, we remember/All the times we had together/And as our lives change, from whatever/We will still be, friends forever"

Yesterday was our graduation, and it was a really beautiful ceremony. We had the chamber orchestra play, heard amazing speeches from peers and our year adviser, and received our final portfolios. At the time I didn't think it was really the end. We've still got to complete our final exams, we have our formal, presentation day, and we'll be seeing each other countless times in the future. It was at home when it hit me, and I started crying. I'm not going to see these people every day, like I have for the past however many years. Some I may never see again, teachers included. Reading the amazing messages that people wrote in the back of my yearbook made me realise how precious the friendships that you form and consolidate in high school really are. While graduation isn't the end of these friendships, will they ever be a strong as they were during high school? I really hope will, because the relationships I have made with these people are definitely worth keeping forever.

Finishing high school is like being thrown into deep water. You struggle at first, but then eventually find your way back to the surface. For that I'm nervous and excited. Now it's all up to me. How I spend my days; how I spend the rest of my life. That's what's both scary and exciting- I can now begin to fulfill the dreams that have been swirling around in my head since Year 7, or Kindergarten for that matter. The scary part is that the onus is all on me. Will I disappoint myself? What if the path is rocky? But then the excitement kicks in. You only learn from your mistakes.Things won't always fall into place, and sometimes alternative routes to my goals may lead to even better things.  The world is now my oyster, and it's time to make things happen.

Here's to the future!

Time to say goodbye.

Tomorrow I begin my final week of school. WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH #fml.

I've been thinking for a while about what to write here, in regards to the end of high school. Do I write about what I'm going to miss? Low points? High points? Today I'll begin with "What I'm going to miss".
WHAT I'M GOING TO MISS: 
-First and foremost, my friends. Without friends, I'd be nowhere.
-The relationships that you have with teachers in year 12. They're more friends than teachers.
-Having somewhere to go every day-having school as a security blanket. Next year I could sit at home watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians for the entire day if I wanted to. NO CHLOE, NO.
-Buying $2 strawberry frozen yoghurt from the canteen on hot days.
-The common room. Dirty fridge, hot wall and poisonous heater included.
-My coffee parents at Central Station. I still don't know their names after 3 years.
-Spending free periods trawling the Top Shop and ASOS websites, but never buying anything.
-The tension when the final bell is about to go, and everyone is preparing to run for the first bus.
-That feeling of satisfaction when you finish a set of exams.
-Being a high school senior in general. Nothing is as liberating as wearing a year 12 jersey.
-My subjects. My major works were my babies, and I am really passionate about my subjects. It's sad that now it all comes down to a few final exams.
-Providing free therapy to each other!
-Walking to Fox Studios, buying $2 boiled rice and Subway cookies, and eating them on the grass.
-Free periods in the common room when the grade has maths.
-My year group. I couldn't have asked for a happier, more wonderful bunch of girls to spend the latter part of my high school career with.
-Buying $1.20 pink cupcakes every afternoon.
-Drooling over boy-bands.
-SCHOOL. Everything about it. I spent the majority of my junior years complaining about it, but now that it's actually coming to an end I've realised how lucky I've been.

WHAT I'M NOT GOING TO MISS:
-The uniform. It quite literally looks like a piece of shit.
-The bus-stop in the morning. There's nothing quite like 14 year old boys pushing and shoving their way onto the bus to start your morning. Last week the bus driver told them to let a group of girls on first, and one shouted "WHY!?".
-Exam periods. Enough said.
-Hot days in class with no air-conditioning (public schools 4lyfeee xoxo).
-Angry teachers.
-The night before an assignment is due.
-Morning classes (having to catch a 7.00 train to get there).
-Not having enough money to buy a coffee.
-Annoying junior students.
-Pressure.
-Those days when you have zero motivation.

We had our muck-up assembly on Friday, complete with a dubstep cover of our school song, our skit "Finding Mimmo" (of which I was the narrator), our own version of "Under the Sea", and an emotional medley of songs at the end. The theme was "Oceans 11" (Because we are the class of '11..derrrp), so we all looked pretty cool in our sea-themed costumes. I was Mamma Mermaid, and wore the mermaid tail that I wore to my 5th birthday party (don't ask), a stupid hat, and an apron with dolphins on it. I'm really cool.

Yesterday my friend Cam got married, and it was one of the most BEAUTIFUL weddings I have ever seen. The church was just like the one which I posted a while ago (where Kate Moss got married), and the amazing weather made the scenery look like it was out of a fairy tale. Oh, and Cam looked INCREDIBLE! If I ever get married I'm just going to show a wedding planner a picture of Cam's wedding and say "do this kthnxbi".

I hope that you all click cross on my blog right now and go out and enjoy the sunshine (if you live in Sydney). STOP BEING A CYBER HERMIT AND LIVE LIFE! (I should really take my own advice). Today was semi-productive though- I wrote a giant list of things to do in the period between the end of the HSC and the commencement of uni. It's going to be awesome. Enough said.

P.S. I absolutely love a good cartoon. This one is wonderful! It's exactly what I think about when I sit out and look at the stars (yes, I know that I'm lame). Star-watching really puts things in perspective.

P.P.S. Click here for an amazing audition on the X-Factor! She's incredible. 

TROLOLOL.

So this morning year 12 organised a "Champagne Breakfast" at a park next to our school to celebrate our final days of school. About half-way through we noticed a woman standing with her dog behind a tree. On her phone. Looking at us. We slowly and subtly put the champagne away, and two girls went down to walk past her and suss out what she was doing. However, as soon as they got near her she started briskly power-walking in the opposite direction. 

We return to our breakfast. 

Then a police car turned up. 

We quickly put the drinks away, and the car just did a loop and drove off into the distance. Well all returned to our breakfast. Then our school deputies turned up. Basically we told them that we were only drinking non-alchoholic wine, and offered them some of our pastries and fruit. They were really nice, and just told us that school started in 20 minutes and that we had to be in class. CLOSE CALL, close call. Lucky no-one was tipsy/drunk, or the end of the story wouldn't have been so pretty.

I've been a bit slack with the Blog Challenge, so I'll answer some now to catch up. 

1. 5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex.

I couldn't really name 5 specific things. It really depends on the type of guy. There are some guys with more than 5 things that irritate me, and some with none.

2. The best thing that has happened to me this week.

Probably finding out that I came 3rd overall in Modern History! I worked really hard for the subject (I.e. neglected most of my other ones) so it was rewarding to see it pay off.

3. How I'd spend $10 000

Every dress of ASOS, holiday to Glastonbury Festival and around Europe, invest $1000, give a bit to charity, and put the rest into savings. 

4. Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for 10 years, or someone you hate for a month? Explain why.

I guess I'd go with the option "someone you hate for a month". While we'd ignore each other at first, eventually we'd get so desperate to interact with another human (to prevent us from going insane...think Cast Away) that we'd start conversing. And who knows, maybe we'd learn to like each other over time. 

To finish off this post, I'm posting this video. Jamie Campbell Bower (actor/lead singer of The Darling Buds) is so talented. Who can sing that well when they're clearly off their face?

Day 8: Three wishes day
1. For a happy life filled with happy moments and happy people
2. To be able to look back on my life when I'm in a rocking chair and think "Wow...you rocked gaaaallfriend"
3. FOR THE HSC TO JUST FINISH ALREADY. IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK!?

So yesterday was the 10 year anniversary of 9/11. I honestly can't believe I was only seven years old when it happened- I still vividly remember that morning. Yesterday I was scrolling down my newsfeed and I was so sickened to see some of the comments people were making about 9/11, some even making jokes about it. Any loss of life is a tragedy. No wonder people think so lowly of our generation...

Here is a beautiful photo of the lights which shone from Ground Zero in the place of the towers. There's something about the lights hitting the clouds which gives me goosebumps.

We shouldn't only remember the horrors of the event however. I read an amazing article from the New York Times called "In Love with Death", and it's about how we should "recall the hour of human decency", along with grieving and war. Click here if you're interested in reading the article!

I'm hopeless.

I CAN'T EVEN DO A BLOG CHALLENGE PROPERLY! I was just scrolling through recent posts and saw that I did the question "A song to match your mood" twice. COME ON CHLOE. SERIOUSLY.

Day 8: Something that stresses you out
Apart from school/exams, there's something which makes me want to throw a brick at someone who is riding down a hill on a bicycle. It's when people go "Yooooo hooooo!". Just writing that gave me goosebumps. Yooooooo hooooooooooooooo! GENSJIRGARUIEGNLADJKFNGKADFJG.

Soooo the majority of today was spent babysitting a beautiful four year old called Elyse. Since most of the kids I babysit are 10-14 year old boys, this was a MAJORRRR change. I literally had to watch her the entire time. Even when I'd put on a movie hoping that she'd sit down and WATCH IT she'd walk around and ask to play Mums and Dads. I put on the Barbie movie "Princess and the Pauper", and I am humiliated to say that I got so emotionally caught up in the story-line that I failed to notice that she was sucking the inky end of a texta, and that her teeth were now blue. After a minor freak out over the fact that her teeth could now be blue forever as a result of me getting caught up in a Barbie movie, I took her to a park for a play. For some reason she began to call me Mum, and you can imagine the amount of funny looks I got from the various other mothers at the park....

Here is part one of the amazingly bad-so much so that it's amazingly good-movie that is Barbie in Princess and the Pauper. DON'T JUDGE. BARBIE IS COOL OK!?

OMG

GEORGE CRAIG.
IN SYDNEY.
ME COMPLETELY UNAWARE.
BEING A DJ AT THE BURBERRY STORE ON GEORGE ST.
NOW LEAVING TO GO BACK TO LONDON.
GEORGE CRAIG.
SYDNEY.
AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW!

Yeah, incase you didn't get the message, George Craig (the guy whose band (One Night Only) I've been a fan of since he was 17 and when nobody knew who they were/Burberry model/my future husband) has been in Sydney for the past 2 days to be a DJ at the new Burberry store on George St. And yeah, I had no idea. I stopped stalking his Twitter a while ago (Yes, I'm a loser), so I had no idea he was in my HOMELAND until Eleni texted me last night after she found out. And now he's leaving to return to London. I COOOOOULD HAVE MEEEETTTTTT HIIIMMMMM BOOOHHOOOOOOHOOOOOOO. BOOOHOOO. Boohooo. *Sniff*

Now for the today's question in the blog challenge:
Day 7: A song to match your mood
I'm pretty chill at thaa momento (drinking tea, Tumblring, waiting for my Oporto dinner), so I'd probably have to say "Yoko" by Pegasus Bridge. It's a really beautiful song. They did it for Burberry Acoustic (George Craig did an acoustic cover of Chemistry for Burberry Acoustic-click here if ya'll interested).